'This Again'
This again
the emptiness that is us
you again
me again
til never again
This hollow pain in my heart
and wanting to take you
in my hands my empty arms
and knowing how things will end
All there is is what is
and will be forgotten
And I want you relentlessly
depressingly when
I lose myself in this pain
that grips me now
I know how it will be
how it will inevitably be
me drowning within all this darkness
and you alone (as always)
And I know all the reasons
why I shouldn't care and
I know it'll all be
go on-just the same
I know you will go on
with all your misery
breathing in, breathing in
all the poison that comprises your life
and I will go on too
But now I must succumb, I cannot help but
let the tears slip by
and choke on the rawness
of this pain
baby
I cannot
you
I cannot But revel in the
nothingness
copyright AVA 1997